Today is the fifth day of the new year and I'm reflecting on my accomplishments and set backs in 2010 and all that I want to do in 2011 as I'm sure anyone reading this is doing as well. I hope my personal thoughts and this little share on the internet helps somebody or inspires anyone who may be wondering what has happened and what the hell do they do now. In 2010 I did make some progress with taking chances and getting out of the box. In 2010 I joined an organic urban farm, a theatre group, finally learned to play chess and started to make some career changes. And, oh yes, I created this blog. Most importantly I let go of a lot of residual emotions that were holding me back from getting to where I need to be. Letting go of these emotions was necessary for me to go forward but I also had to "reframe" my perspective of some things. For some things we can't change, we need to look at in a different way so we can find something to appreciate and learn and then move on.
Now for what's up in 2011, I'm gonna embrace the idea of being a risk taker. Funny, as time goes by we forget to take chances and I think learning to be a risk taker becomes crucial as we get older. A willingness to learn new things, taste different foods, experiment with a new hairstyle all keep us feeling fresh, flexible and open to change which we all know is inevitable in life. Can't say I'll be bunjy jumping or going on a wild African safari anytime soon, but I plan to incorporate small risks on a regular basis to build up my risk tolerance.
Now for the "let go's" in 2011: I'm proud to say I've continued on my path of releasing people from my life which is a hard process. Not just the toxic people we're happy to let go of but the close family and old friends that we share bonds with but have come to realize that maybe, at least not permanently, we need a temporary respite from the ones we love and cherish. It's also a good cleansing time emotionally, spiritually and physically. I plan to completely delete sugar from my diet and reduce white carbs, try a new exercise regimen because that too has gotten old and really try to stop cursing this year-that's so unlady like.
But most of all I want to be more patient and loving with myself. I can be very hard on myself for not "getting it" fast enough and moving quickly enough. But it's all good. We move when we're ready. I just have to remind myself that I can move or get moved by life, God or the universe, so taking action is mandatory. I don't know where it came from, but I'm really ready for the major changes and shifts that need to happen for me to have a more satisfying life. I guess maybe I'm ready because I realize "if not now, when?" or maybe it's the deaths and illnesses of family and friends lately or maybe my faith has grown to that really trusting place with God that I feel like I can fly now. I'm not sure what has me so ready to leap but I'm finally here and just glad to be here.
When you reach a certain age you realize that your time is not infinite and that our time here on earth is a gift. Everyday is a gift and it really is like the old folks say: "As long as you've got your health you can do anything". In 2011 I'm committed to not stressing over stupid things, and allowing people and situations to determine my happiness. I am really the author of my own life and all the contents within it. Now I can't control what happens to me all the time but I can control how I react to everything. That's something I'm still working on and hoping to master in 2011. We all give too much power away and that's energy we need to keep pushing those boulders up our own hills.
